Seconds away from being a mother
Lily’s POV
“What?!!”. Susan, Daniel and I all screamed at the same time. I finally said something after a while of being silent in the room.
“You all heard me loud and clear”. He said firmly.
“You want this slut to carry your grand child?”. Susan asked eyeing me bitterly.
“Very correct”. He said causally as if he was just asking me to pluck roses from a garden. “Did you not think that they would have kids eventually?, were they just going to stay married forever without having kids?. You must be crazy if that’s what you thought”. He hissed at Susan.
“That’s not going to happen “. Alex said in a firm voice, if only his say was final.
“Oh it will. Now listen to me. If news gets out that you’re expecting a baby with your wife , then all those nonsense about her and Martin would be blown away.” Alex’s father said.
“Can’t we just fake it. I mean just lie to the media that she’s expecting a child”. Susan chirped in her oh so brilliant idea. I couldn’t help but roll my eyes.
“What happens after nine months hmm?, Don’t be silly please. Doing that would make everything worse when it gets out that it was all a sham”. Alex’s father said while shaking his head in disapproval.
“But there must be another way”. Susan pressed on sounding desperate.
“Please be my guest”. Alex’s father said sarcastically. “If you have a better Idea then I’m willing to listen”.
“What if we make Martin declare openly that he doesn’t have anything to do with Lily and it was just a coincidence or an innocent meeting.” Alex piped in with his idea.
“And have the media think that we forced him into doing it?. Which is technically what we are going to do if at all we go through with this ridiculous idea. And how can you explain that picture where it looked like they were about to kiss. Is there anything innocent about that?”. Maybe Daniel had a point, Alex’s idea would definitely back fire on us.
“So you’re finally agreeing with us that Lily is whoring around right?”. Susan said with a glare .
“I never said that”. Daniel retorted.
“Oh please”. Susan scoffed.
“So that brings us back to my initial idea, it isn’t so bad if you ask me”. Alex’s father said with a laugh as he waved Susan off.
“I can’t have a baby”. I said panicking.
It’s all too sudden. I’m still too young for any of this.
How would I take care of a baby when I can’t even do that for myself. I don’t anything about being a mother. What if my body can’t handle being pregnant. How would I even get pregnant.
Do I need to sleep with Alex. Of course I would. Would he even want that. What if he doesn’t like my body. What if he thinks I’m used and damaged. What if he wants a surrogate. Can I possibly…
“What the hell do you mean by that”. Alex screamed at me. What’s with him and screaming on top of his lungs. I’m literally right in front of him.
“I mean I can’t. I’m still too…”
“She means her womb is damaged and she can’t carry a child. That’s what you get from whoring around.” Susan snickered as she rained insults at me.
“That’s not what I mean. I just can’t…”
“You’re getting tested now. I don’t trust you at all.” He sneered at me. “I’m calling the doctor”. Susan responded to him with a nod as he walked out of the room to call the doctor.
“Who knows the kind of STDs and infections you must have by now. If you still have a womb, I’m certain it’s already infected”. She hissed at me.
“Susan please”. Daniel shunned her. She sized me up one last time before sitting back in her previous place.
My feet were killing me and I needed to sit down to digest this news that I just heard.
I moved slowly and sat on the end of the couch where Alex’s father was already seated. “Everything will be fine”. He reassured me in a whisper but I suppose that wouldn’t be enough. I responded his gesture with a forced smile of my own before turning away from him.
It feels like my life is moving so fast. One minute I’m graduating high school, the next minute I’m a married woman and now I’m seconds away from being a mother.
I wish I could just call my father or just anyone to rant to. I might pass out or run away if I think about this twice.
Alex came back a while after and joined us in the sitting room as we all sat in silence. The whole room was filled with so much tension and I think that if you just looked intently you would be able to see the tension and grab with your own hands.
“Hello everyone”. A while later, a short chubby woman, dressed in a long red pencil skirt and a sky blue long sleeved shirt, who looked to be in her early fifties walked into the sitting room and greeted us with a sweet smile.
I’m very sure that if she came in just a second later, we would have all chopped off our heads judging by the way we were all glaring at each other.
Everyone quickly mumbled a small hello and I’m certain she must have felt the tension in the room.
“Welcome doctor”. Alex moved towards her and they both shared a handshake.
She scanned the room for a second and her eyes lit up when they landed on me. “You must be Lily. I’m Dr. Martha Jones”. She flashed me a smile and I responded with a nod. “Your husband has asked me here to check over your sexual health.”
I flushed at her statement and glanced at Alex who just rolled his eyes at me.
“Alright”. I responded to Dr. Jones. “Shall we go somewhere more private?”. She asked looking at me expectantly.
“Yes, of course”. My heart leaped in joy at the prospect of just being alone with the chubby doctor.
I stood up and gestured for her to follow me upstairs to my room but my heart twisted in pain as everyone else walked behind her quietly.
We all got into the room and I sat on the edge of bed with my feet dangling due to the height of the bed. Dr. Jones had a seat before me and everyone else lined up watching us.
“When did your last period begin?”. She asked straightforward.
I fiddle with my thumb on my lap. “Monday, the w…week before last.” I said quietly.
“And are they regular?, every twenty eight days?”. Dr. Jones asked.
“Y…yes”. I responded.
“Alright honey”. Dr. Jones said then she produced a white sheet from her bag. ” Lily, if you could please take off your jeans and underwear, and use this to cover yourself up before laying down on your back then we can start the exam. I will wait outside in the hall to give you a minute to do so”. She told me softly before leaving the room.
I held onto the white sheet and looked at everyone expectantly. Wouldn’t they give me some privacy.
“We’ll be in the sitting room”. Alex’s father said with a smile before dragging a nagging Susan along with him.
Alex was still standing there glaring me for whatever reason. I did not have it in me to argue with him at this point so I decided to ignore him and change in the bathroom.
“Stay right here.” He said in a firm voice halting my movement.
“No”. I challenged him.
“Lily you’re my wife and soon we’ll be trying to make a baby. There will be nothing you can keep from me”. He said harshly. “Not even your body”.
I flushed at his assertiveness and looked away. I gulped and undid my jeans, and I pulled them down along with my panties. I quickly wrapped the sheets around me and got back on the end of the bed.
Dr. Jones reentered a minute later. She grabbed the stool she was seating on earlier and placed it in front of me again. She sat down and placed her bag on the bed next to me.
“Scoot up the bed a little so your heels are at the end of the bed and lay down honey so we can get started.” Dr. Jones said.
I responded with a slow nod and swallowed nervously as I moved up the bed a bit.
“Have you had an exam before?”. She asked. I shook my head no.
“There’s nothing to worry about dear. There’ll be a bit of coldness from my tools but I’ll be as gentle as I can with everything else”. Dr. Jones said in a reassuring voice.
I nod and slowly lowered myself to lay down.
“Good girl”. Dr. Jones praised. “Alex, go put some pillows under your wife’s head to make her more comfortable then stand with her at her head”. She said to Alex who had been watching us quietly.
Alex moved closer to the bed and grabbed one of the pillows from the head of the bed and gently lifted my head to place the pillow under it.
“Alright honey, bring your heels together up to your bottom and then drop your knees out sideways for me.” Dr. Jones instructs.
I did as i was told and cool air hit my sex making me to bite down on my bottom lip.
Dr. Jones pulled on a pair of gloves and pulled something metal out of the bag which caused my heart to speed up. What the hell was that for?. She applied some liquid lubrication to the metal instrument and looked up at me. “I’m just going to insert this now, very slowly, so that we can have a look and get some swabs done”.
I gave her a small nod and lay my head all the way back so I won’t see her then I closed my eyes wishing I was everywhere else but here.
I whimpered as the cold instrument came in contact with me as she tried to push it inside me.
Alex grabbed my hand in his very large one and warmth filled me immediately from the contact of his skin.
“Lily does that hurt?”. A hint of worry was evident in her tone.
My eyes were still tightly shot as I nod my head quickly.
The doctor clicked her tongue. “Ok, honey, I’m going to insert a finger to see if I can find out what exactly is causing you pain”. She notified me.
I stayed incredibly still, too scared to even nod this time. Seconds later I felt an intrusion as a finger was inserted into my sex and I gasped at the invasion. The deeper she went the more pain I received.
“Oh.” Dr. Jones breathes out. ” I see”. Her tone evident with worry.
“Is something wrong?”. Alex asked as he saw her worried expression.
I did not need to hear her response to know what she was about to say. “There seems to have been some sort of struggle and forced entry into her sex because of her torn walls.”
“What?”. Alex barks out angrily.
Dr. Jones simply ignored his outburst and turned back to me. “Are you okay honey?. You can talk to me”. Dr. Jones pressed on as she rubbed my legs softly looking at me with immense pity.
“Are you saying that my wife was raped?”. Alex asked in a pained voice, his voice breaking slightly.
“Yes, Alex”. Dr. Jones responded quietly. Hot tears spilled from my eyes as she responded to Alex. I never wanted him to know about this. I never wanted him to see me as a damaged goods.Content rights by NôvelDr//ama.Org.
“Leave!!”. Alex roars.
“Lily, do you want me to leave?”. She asked me softly, ignoring Alex’s demands.
“I said leave!!.” He said more harshly than before.
“Lily are you safe?. I can…”. She pressed on.
“It’s alright doctor. You can leave. I promise it’s fine”. I finally summoned the courage to speak up.
She looked at me intently as if trying to decipher if I was actually telling the truth or I just said that out of fear but I reassured her again with a small smile.
When she was convinced, she took off her gloves and stood up before returning the stool to my dressing table.
She looked at me one last time before picking up her bag. ” I’ll see my self out.” She said before leaving the room.
I quickly clamped my legs shut and made sure that the sheets were covering me properly.
“Who did this to you?”. He asked giving me a cold hard look.
I guess all of my fears were coming to pass.