Love You Can’t Say

“Cassandra was killed by Boss Kim’s people!”

I hissed, glaring at him with determined viciousness, “I recognized the gun that kid had, and you think I don’t know anything if you don’t tell me!”Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.

Benjamin’s neck stiffened, obviously not expecting me to guess the truth, frozen speechless.

I sneered and left a sneer, struggling again, “Let go of me, don’t touch me with your indiscriminate hands, I feel sick!”

Yet Benjamin just stood motionless, not letting me go, and not talking, like a rock.

After a few moments, he sighed, seemingly tired, “What will it take for you to forget about all this?”

“Never.” I blurted out.

“There is always a solution, you can not leave me, there is always a knot in your heart, it is not good for you and me, as long as you say, I can do, never hesitate.” Benjamin discusses without warmth.

I have more than one knot in my heart Cassandra, he is really a noble man who forgets too much.

Dennis said that we would avenge Cassandra, who died under Boss Kim’s men, so, well, I’m going to put him under Boss Kim’s gun too!

“Unless you break away from Boss Kim and never do these hurtful deeds again, which I know, you can do, you have a clean business.” I narrowed my eyes and tested his bottom line as I pleased.

Just taking me with him, Boss Kim almost killed him, this time, what will be the consequences of asking him to leave that crime syndicate?

Benjamin handsome face a cold, hands of the force slackened a lot, the eyes have a momentary loss of concentration, and not the first time to reply.

He knew in his heart how much it meant to do this.

“What, you can’t let go?” I said sarcastically, “You really still value those black-hearted money and life on a knife edge more in your heart than I do.”

“It’s okay really, it’s supposed to be a game, and the fact that you can’t do it only proves that you’re as good as Dennis and won’t lose your mind over love.”

“But what’s different is that Dennis used to do it for me, so I can’t let him go until now, and you, you’re smarter, you don’t pay anything, you don’t lose anything, and when you’re tired and weary, you won’t be pestered by me, you’re the smartest one.”

“That’s it, I didn’t expect anything from you anyway.”

After that, while he was still in a state of shock, I quickly broke free of him and ran into the guest room next door, slamming the door shut with my backhand.

There was no anti-lock, Benjamin could have smashed the door open since he could find the key, there was no need.

But I just wanted the space of being alone at this moment, even for a few minutes.

To my surprise, Benjamin did not come back to bother me. I walked out of the room until the afternoon, the house has long been gone his shadow, even the men guarding the house also disappeared.

I was a little surprised to think that Benjamin had completely relinquished his grip on me, only to go downstairs and find that the men had simply moved outside the house.

I was naive.

But at least it looks like we won’t have to face Benjamin again today, so I’m glad.

Late at night, I gawked at the chattering anchorwoman on the TV and pondered how long it would be before Dennis would break into Benjamin’s lair.

Benjamin suddenly stumbled in, before reaching the door, the strong smell of alcohol hit him.

I plugged my nose in disgust and watched him fall onto the couch, only then did I see clearly that his face was bruised and the corner of his mouth was swollen.

You were beaten up for being drunk outside?

But I didn’t ask. To this extremely self-righteous man, any question would automatically be interpreted as a concern for him.

He leaned back against the back of the sofa, slowed down, opened his heavy eyelids and looked at me, before he went sickly to untie the tie around his neck.

He untied it and casually tossed it aside, put his hands on his lap, covered his face, rubbed his hands up and down as a way to ease the discomfort brought on by the alcohol, and finally maintained a posture of blocking his mouth and nose, revealing only his two eyes, before speaking slowly, “Don’t you care at all about why I got this way?”

Why should I care?

I don’t say anything, but still give him a curious look.

Compared to his usual flamboyant gentlemanly appearance, Benjamin today is indeed scribbled unlike, as far as I can remember it should be the first time he lost his temper like this.

“I’m having a showdown with Boss Kim.” Benjamin suddenly went out of his way and leaned back against the back of the couch with his hands spread out, looking at me in a drunken daze, waiting for me to give a reaction.

I was indeed surprised by his statement and looked at him with raised eyebrows, not expecting him to really do that.

“And then what?” Actually, the injuries on his body and his return intact now have proved everything, I just want to know how he was suppressed by Boss Kim.

“Hm,” Benjamin laughed to himself, looking vacantly directly in front of him as if he were talking about someone else, “of course it was rejected.”

“And then beat up so hard that he almost broke a rib.”

“Well, since you didn’t interrupt, it seems Boss Kim still has feelings for you and didn’t hit you dead.” I deliberately said sarcastically.

Benjamin sniffed and shook his head, “He gave me two choices, die with you, or continue to be the dog he does so well and he won’t touch you again.”

“So you came back with a wound to tell me that not only did you go and offend Boss Kim for me, but you were willing to be Boss Kim’s dog for me?” I said in a nonchalant manner.

Look at Benjamin’s attitude in front of Boss Kim, he should have enough dignity in that group, but if you want to keep us both safe, it means that in the future he can only follow Boss Kim’s lead, where Boss Kim points, he will shoot this gun to where.

Benjamin did not deny, but pulled away from the topic, smiling very hard, “stay with Boss Kim, you will always hate me, do not stay, we both have to die, it looks like there is nothing wrong with maintaining the status quo ante, at least you can always keep you with me.”

“You might as well say you’re greedy for life and death.” I sneered and curled my lips, not hiding the contempt in my heart.

“Whatever you say, I don’t want to pay attention to that anymore, like you said, I’ll get tired of you sooner or later, so until that day comes, we’ll both just have to put up with each other.”

Probably because of the alcohol, Benjamin’s voice is getting smaller and smaller, leaning in the sand, but slowly closed his eyes.

Watching his chest. I suddenly had a ruthless intention to end him like that.

As long as Benjamin is dead, no one will bite on Dennis anymore.

But I soon realized that it was not feasible to do so, whether Justin or Boss Kim, Benjamin are special feelings, they will not watch him die and do nothing.

The only way to be completely at peace is to eliminate them all in one fell swoop.

Just as I was lost in my own thoughts, Benjamin’s voice suddenly sounded again, “Trying to kill me again?”

“Yeah, I can’t wait to cramp you up and tell you to beg for your life and die.”

“It’s good, it’s better to be hated by you than to pretend it doesn’t exist.”