FORTY-EIGHT
“Good morning, hubby.”
“Good morning, wife.” I kissed her on the cheek when I smelled the food she made. “Breakfast looks good, huh?”
“Yes, of course for you.” I slightly smiled when I heard her say it. My heart is thrilled and I want to hug her tightly.
Lauren and I are back together. She is now the old Lauren my wife. At first, she was a bit awkward in our situation. She is obviously ashamed of me even though she says she is ok.
I watched her videos, of travel and tours that I saved on my cellphone. Since then she has been ok. As well as those saved on her cellphone. Good thing her mobile was not damaged. She forgot all. My brothers, Dane’s friends. What happened to Lileth, was the scene at her daddy’s party. She forgot everything.
“Hubby, I will come with Hendrick later.” The smile on my lips immediately disappeared but I didn’t show it. I don’t have a choice, as I said she doesn’t remember anything about us.
“Sure.”
“He asked me to go for a date. Is it ok if I come home late?”
“You have your key, right?”
“Yeah.”
“It’s fine.”
“Thanks.” And she kissed me. “I am so excited. I don’t know what happened to him, but since I am amnesia I feel like he has changed. I mean, he wasn’t like that. He is not sweet, he is not clingy and he always has no time for me. But now, it’s very different. Something like that makes me his priority.”
“Do you like it?” I asked then leaned on the sink.
“Yeah, I’m happy,”
“Do you really love him that much don’t you?” I saw her smile. Her eyes blink then smile at me.
“I am, I love him so much and this is really what I wanted before. To be with him always, him to be sweet with me. I must be really fragile. But no, I really love him.” I feel like she stabbed me. Seeing how happy she is mentioning that ass hurts me the most.
“Wife?”
“Hmph.”
“Don’t you remember anything about us at all?”
She sat on the chair then put her hand on the table then lowered herself. She sighed then shook her head.
“I’m sorry, hubby. But nothing, I tried last time but it just gave me a headache. I thought I was going to pass out from the pain. If only I could break my head to remember you, I would.”
I just sigh. Why is it that she has forgotten me and not just that guy? I feel like I want to believe what that animal said that Lauren doesn’t really love me. She just used me and paid me using her body because of the help I gave her.Property of Nô)(velDr(a)ma.Org.
Lauren never really loved me. Maybe. Maybe.
“Are you mad at me?” she asked sadly.
“Huh?”
“Are you angry because I forgot you?”
“No, of course not.”
Hate? No, I’m not. I’m not angry because I have no right to be angry. Then maybe I’ll be angry when her memory comes back and she tells me the truth. That she doesn’t love me and is just using me. For now, I’m just sad because she won’t remember me.
“Hubby, sorry huh? Based on the picture and the videos you showed me, I know how close we are. I feel like we have a happier and deeper relationship than Hendrick and I. I don’t even know why from the many memories I can recall, it was that time when daddy just told me that I was getting married and that he had already found someone to be my husband. It could be after the wedding or even six months after the wedding.”
“It’s not your fault. Nobody wants that to happen.”
“The doctor said that maybe I am in deep thought when the accidents happen. Maybe I have a lot of what-ifs in my mind referring to the past. So when the accident hits me, my mind went back to the past about that what if.”
“Like what if you don’t recognize me?”
“I don’t know. It can be what if I loved you before I married you, or what if we just became friends before we got married? It can also be what if the marriage doesn’t work out. I can’t say, because I’m not really old—–ah!”
“Lauren!” I quickly approached her. She was holding her head and tightly twisting her own hair. “Hey.”
“Oh! It hurts.”
“I will call a doctor.”
“No!” But he held my hand. “Stay here, please.”
“But—-”
“Please.” She held my hand tighter. I nodded and held her hands too. She breathed fast and hard as if she was tired. Later she also stopped.
“Are you ok?”
“Yeah.”
“What happened?”
“I thought about the last thing I remembered before I woke up in the hospital, so my head hurt.”
“But the doctor said you don’t need to do it, you need to relax your mind. Your memories will come back on their own at the right time.”
“What if it’s not?” I see the sadness in her eyes. “The doctor said it can come back, but not sure too. No one knows.”
I didn’t answer. She needs to remember that she loves me and I love her. That I told her I love her and she said she loves me. Even more so now that that guy is competing with me.
I need to know the truth. Did she just use me or does she really love me?
But she can’t force her mind either. Because she might be like that. It might get worse if she insists.
“You don’t need to rush. Even if you don’t remember me, it’s ok. We can build new memories together.”
“But I want to remember our old memories. I want to remember everything. I feel that something important happened that I need to remember. I want to remember what it is.”
“Not now, little by little we will talk about that. Every night before we sleep we will talk about the past. Is it ok with you?”
“Yeah.” I hold her face when she touches my hand. “Why do I have these feelings that you are taking care of me? That you cared for me a lot, hubby.”
“I did, but somehow I hurt you too.”
“You did?”
“Yeah. And I regret it so much.”
“In what way——” She didn’t finish what she had to say when her cellphone rang. She reached for it and immediately smiled. “I’ll answer it.”
“Go ahead.” I stood up and walked to get some water.
“Hi, sweetheart. Good morning.” Oh damn, that asshole. It’s good to go inside the cell phone and hit him left and right.
“Yeah, I didn’t forget I also said to Dale and he agreed.” She looked at me and smiled so I smiled back at her.
“Yeah, of course, I will be there.”
“Sure. I miss you too, I love you too.” And she ended the call. “It’s Hendrick,” she said, lowering the cell phone.
“Obviously, I heard it.” I tried to calm myself down. even though the truth is that I’m jealous. I’m in too much pain.
“He reminded me about our lunch, and said we will spend the night together.” I looked at her without answering. “Is it ok?”
“You sleep with him?” I ask.
“Yeah, and besides, I remember that we used to sleep together before.”
“Before we get married. When we got married, you didn’t spend much time with him.”
“Oh,”
“I won’t ask you to remember me. But listen to what I have to say. Everyone knows that we are married, I am your husband and no one knows about you and Hendrick. And even if they know you have amnesia, they still shouldn’t see you together. Note that.” Then I turned to leave him.
But I stopped when she hugged me from behind. My feet are shaking and my chest is pounding.
“I’m sorry. I hope you’re not mad. I was just excited by what he was showing me because I’d had this dream for us for a long time. I promised I won’t sleep with him. I will come home after dinner and we will not go out in public places.”
“I’m not stopping you from going with him. But I hope you know your limits. I guess you know that because we both have a name to protect.”
“Yeah, I hope you’re not mad.” I slowly turned around and faced him.
“No more, let’s eat.”
“Thank you.” And she leaned her head on my chest. “Thank you, hubby.”
‘Please remember me, Lauren. I miss you so damn much wife. It’s me that’s important and not him. You put me first and not him. It’s me and not him.’