Chapter 742 Treasure Your Love
She would rather end her life than die of insanity like her mother.
However, she would still be left with nothing, even if everything ended.
There was no love in this chase, no destination in mind…
Perhaps, the best solution would be to hypnotize herself.
She succeeded once, so she should be able to perform it a second time.
She wished to forget about Jasper and everything related to him, including Sandro through the hypnotism.
Only by ending the source of her agony could she be no longer in distress.
Anthea realized that something was off with Stella and she brought Sandro to play in the room.
She stared at the clock on the wall as time passed. She remained motionless like a sculpture, ignoring her surrounding completely.
Seeing Stella’s anguish made Suzi worried. She approached Stella again and said, “Don’t wait anymore. It’s almost noon. You didn’t eat anything since the day before and you were awake the entire night. Your body will not be able to tolerate it.”
Stella looked slowly towards the clock hanging on the wall.
It was already 11. 50 am.
She had waited for more than 26 hours.
He had left for good. He left her, Sandro, and even his mother. He was so heartless!
Stella stood up gradually and clutched her chest where the heart was located.
She experienced a searing pain in her heart, probably due to the lack of sleep. She was so exhausted that she seemed to be floating on the ground with each step.
“Stella, come and eat something before you go to bed,” Suzi said softly.
Stella shook her head but didn’t say anything. She felt very weak and climbed the stairs slowly.
Suzi was worried that she would fall, so she stared at her with concern.
She didn’t take heed of anyone. She walked into her room, closed the door, climbed onto the bed and closed her eyes. Her heart ached so terribly that she doubted that it belonged to her.
She forced herself to stop thinking and fell asleep.
However, she could not seem to sleep well. She woke up every few minutes due to the pain. It hurt so much that she felt like her heart was going to burst.
She tossed and turned throughout. When she finally rose, it was already 17 hours after.
She entered the bathroom to brush her teeth and came out after a shower.
“You are awake,” Suzi said with a smile.
Her cold gaze swept over the room. “Where’s Jasper?”
Suzi’s smile froze on her lips. Stammering, she tried to make a response.
Stella was a psychologist. Suzi’s expression had already revealed the answer.
She knew all along that he would not return. Hence, she was able to remain indifferent despite confirming the answer.
“Mom, I’m hungry,” Stella said and sat down in front of the table.
“I’ll prepare breakfast for you right away,” Suzi said hurriedly and went into the kitchen.
After a while, the servants brought out some sandwiches, bacon, and eggs.
Suzi sat opposite her and tried to give her some comfort. “Jasper knows what he is doing. I believe that he will return one day.”
Stella kept her head lowered as she finished her breakfast.
“We just need to wait patiently,” Suzi continued, “If you’re still upset, I could accompany you on a trip. We’ll bring along Sandro, Anthea, and Lynette.”
Stella remained silent as she continued to eat.
Suzi was lost for words. Stella’s cold demeanor made her slightly uneasy.
Stella finished her breakfast ten minutes later. She put down her cutlery and looked at Suzi.
“Mom,” Stella shouted.
Suzi had a bad feeling suddenly. “Yes?”
“I’m not going to wait anymore,” Stella said coolly. She remained calm and indifferent.
“Alright, we won’t wait anymore. We’ll live together in the future,” Suzi responded.
“When I waited for him yesterday, I gave the matter a lot of thought and recalled our memories together. He wishes to maintain the peace of our country and the world whereas I wish for love and care. Since our perceptions and life goals are different, both of us will definitely quarrel, leading to frustration, disappointment, and anguish. We will always be in distress,” Stella said softly.
“I had a similar experience. I understand what you are going through,” Suzi’s eyes were brimming with tears.
Stella forced a smile. “I can’t pretend that I don’t care. Each time I wait for him, I will feel that I have been wronged. When my grievance reaches a certain level, it will turn into hatred and worse, paranoid. I will go crazy. Thoughts of venting my frustration and letting Jasper regret what he did the day before will cloud my mind.”
Suzi wiped away her tears and said, “You are a sensible and kind child.”
“But at last, I do feel that I have been wronged. He could turn his back on everything so easily. It’s time for me to let go of everything too.”
Suzi became anxious. “Stella, what do you plan to do? You still have Dante and Sandro. I hope you are not thinking of hurting yourself.”
“Mom, you can’t make an omelet without breaking eggs, sacrifices and gains are interrelated. It’s a bad idea to have a mother who is in an unstable mental state to remain by her child’s side. Sandro will be impacted by my emotions, just like how I have always been influenced by my mother. I suffer from depression and mental breakdown easily. I tend to collapse and go to extremes when something goes wrong,” Stella explained.Content rights by NôvelDr//ama.Org.
“Stella, you’re still young. Everything will become better soon,” Suzi replied worriedly.
“I want to leave. Perhaps, I won’t return for the rest of my life,” Stella said softly.
Suzi burst into tears. “Jasper has just left. Are you going to leave too? How could you guys be so heartless? Steven, Jasper, and even you.”
“The world has always been like this. Sentimental people will always be hurt by others. Believe me, if I stay here, it will be torture to you every single day,” Stella responded.
She knew herself well. If she chose to stay, she would eventually lose her mind. After she had gone crazy, she would be like her mother and become a burden to them.
“You’ve made up your mind, haven’t you?” Suzi inquired.
“Mom, I’m leaving Sandro to you.”
“If Jasper returns in the future, where should we find you?” Suzi asked with red eyes.
“Don’t look for me even if he returns. I will not forgive him. Once, twice, I have forgiven him so many times. I don’t have such a strong heart. Moreover, I want love and companionship. I want a husband to be by my side and live a happy and ordinary life,” Stella said determinedly.
“What if Sandro misses you?”
Stella’s eyes became deep and dark with emotions. “Tell him that I’m dead.”
“What if Sandro holds a grudge against you?” Suzi was putting in her last efforts to prevent Stella from leaving.
“Mom, believe me. If I stay, Sandro will eventually loathe me. I…” Stella frowned and her eyes turned redder.
“What’s wrong with you?” Suzi asked with a concerned voice.
Stella could feel that Suzi cared about her, but she could not bear Jasper’s departure.
As a psychologist, she knew very well that her emotions were near a breaking point.
She would face insomnia and agony every single day from now onwards. She would not be able to escape and she would no longer be herself.
“I’ve made up my mind,” Stella responded with resolution. She stood up and went back to her room to pack her luggage.