Suicide Attempt
No matter how hard a stone is, if it is exposed to water constantly, it will erode by itself. Likewise with humans, how hard the human heart is, it will also melt if given good advice by others.
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A cute man in a long black t-shirt and training pants that matched the color of his t-shirt was walking out of the apartment without his best friend’s knowledge. He wanted to adjust to walking with his cane, he was very bored if he had to stay in the apartment.
He even asked other pedestrians to take him to the Han River. He just wanted to vent his anger that had not subsided from yesterday because he had to lose his most important job. Which is the job that suits her sewing talent first, until it becomes a big company.
When he arrived at a bridge he was carrying an extremely swift river. The man put his stick down, both hands resting on the guardrail of the bridge. He took a breath and then screamed at the top of his lungs. Still blaming himself and blaming his cruel fate, his emotions this time were completely channeled.
After he was satisfied, he unexpectedly took off his footwear and tried to climb the guardrail. Intending to still carry out his action, which was to attempt suicide. The pedestrians who were there were shocked and tried to stop the man’s action. Some even shouted at him, but he ignored them all. Just as his right foot took a small step, a girl’s voice interrupted him.
“Is this what a Gifer Fernandez would do to end his life? Is the CEO of GF Corporation already desperate to live his life?” The cute man called Gifer heard that voice while clenching his hands in annoyance at the girl’s question.
The man immediately turned around, trying to get down from the guardrail with the help of the people who were there. Gifer knew that voice very well, the voice of a girl who helped him yesterday when he was almost hit by a car. That girl was Belvina who had signaled everyone to stay away. They all dispersed and now only herself and Gifer were left, Belvina faced Gifer’s shoulder to face the direction she was in.
“You, how did you know my name?” Gifer asked while pointing at Belvina, also with a confused look on his face.
“Who doesn’t know about GF Corp, hm? Everyone knows about it, even up to the news that GF Corporation has gone bankrupt. Here, if you don’t believe me, I brought the newspaper about the bankruptcy of your company, Mr. Gifer. From that, I thought that the person in the photo must be you, and when I left for work on the bus earlier, I saw you about to do something crazy, so I came here. Why are you so suicidal? What exactly is on your mind oh?” Belvina could not understand why there were still people who wanted to commit suicide in this modern world.
“You don’t know my problems, so you’ll never be able to understand what I’ve been going through!” Gifer argued, raising his voice slightly because of his emotions.Published by Nôv'elD/rama.Org.
“Then tell me, what is the problem?” Not to be outdone, Belvina used her high tone as well.
“You would laugh at me if you knew the truth about me,” in the end it was Gifer who relented to lower his voice.
“There’s nothing to laugh at when someone has a misfortune, Gifer. Although I don’t remember what kind of person you are, but I can still continue my life, even with the fragments of memories that sometimes haunt me,”
“Memories? Memories? Even I feel like we just met. No need to make up stories, we don’t know each other at all,” Gifer denied.
“Yes, I’ve lost my memory since that tragic incident happened to me. The incident where someone had ill intentions towards me while I was at work. That person pushed me and I fell from the top of the stairs to the ground floor. I was unconscious, and when I woke up, I didn’t remember anything. And why would I know that? Because there was an eyewitness who saw that person push me, and that person told me the chronology. With that incident, did I lose hope? Of course not, Gifer. Because I’m not alone, I have God. Who will always help me when I’m in trouble,” Gifer immediately turned his head to the right side. He raised his index finger upwards and laughed lightly.
“God? Hahaha, he even took my eyes. Can he give me back my eyes? Maybe memories can come back, but eyes? No way! Now I ask you, how can God give me back my eyes?” Gifer pointed at his eyes.
“You can, Gifer. As long as you truly believe and remain grateful for the life God has given you. If memory can be restored, then so can eyes, Gifer. You’re a CEO, you should think about how you can get an eye donor at the hospital. Instead of despairing and contemplating suicide,” Gifer looked down for a moment, thinking about what the girl in front of him had said.
“Yes, I wish I would still be the CEO, but unfortunately I’m not.”
“What do you mean, Gifer?” Gifer turned around, trying to face Belvina, although he couldn’t get right in front of the girl, but Belvina confirmed her position.
“My company went bankrupt, again God took what I had, didn’t he? I’ve had it with this world. Why is something like this happening to me?” Belvina’s eyes bulged in disbelief. Still did not expect that Gifer would say such a thing to God.
“Hah… there’s no point if you keep blaming God, Gifer. You’ll be given an even tougher test than this. I can only pray for you, may you quickly realize your bad thoughts about God. Because God created us. And we as humans can only submit and obey what God gives. You are still given breath by God, that’s a sign that God still loves you by giving you this tough test. If you are able to pass it, you will be able to become someone strong and God will reward you later on. But if you can’t get through it, then go ahead and kill yourself! I won’t forbid you, I just want to remind you that suicide won’t solve the problem. Because by killing yourself, your life will linger and will not be at peace until the end of time. I’ll excuse myself.”
After saying that, Belvina left Gifer who was thinking hard about his decision. Whether to keep his wish to commit suicide or not. Suddenly his heart became indecisive. He also forgot to ask who the girl’s name really was, why she was always there when Gifer was in trouble? That’s what was on Gifer’s mind right now.
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To Be Continued